side effect

hot sweating ice with a quickly beating heart

race race race bet on how many bpm got left

wipe myself off the table and numb my gums

with the backfire of a charge blending sauna

on my lips on stumbling on each other

tongue stuck to roof of mouth brain pound 

like heart thump of plant cells vaguely 

wriggling can’t feel inhale or post bail

form the ice burning the soles of my feet

how is this in any way fair?

skinning my knees on the tarmac running

away from a flight home away from

bay search and throat-pointing guns

twisting their metal like an 8-ball

running down a labrynth like a lucky

number eight stuck between two moldy

walls that have eyes looking at you

through spores telling you to have more

sex more eyeballs pressed up against 

the cash register dollar bills a mess

you’ve got blood on your halloween dress

i didn’t know how to say goodbye i counted

the hairs on the stuffed animal horse instead

and thought about all the dead people in

coffins made of ticky tacky someone

gave me a piece of laffy taffy and it

clued my gums shut and i couldn’t

shoot my words anymore and my body

got all wet with icy sweat and i said

are you also dead?