addicted to anything

i wonder how long you can live

off coffee, highs,

and the lowest moments you’ve felt

in your entire life

i can taste it sinking in

and i can feel my body start to shake

i can feel every muscle impulse in my body

crying out in the wilderness sayin

prepare for ye gods

to course through the bloodstream

and every day after we kiss goodnight

i will sleep deeply

knowing that you are always

in my blood in my life

pounding out from my heart

from the deepest parts of self

without a recourse

of beating back to me

even a sentence with eye contact

without a negative word

a punch or an angry look

would be sweet under these high-up gods